If I tELL yOu What I wAnt, WilL You GiVe It to Me

2006-07-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

As i sit here alone in the lab writing these..i look around n suddenly i realised im alone in this school.
i dun haf proper friends which whom you willhang out every second of the time you spent at skul..no friends to eat breakfast/lunch together..
sure, some of them ask me along..but who am i kidding rite? i feel like a left-out among them n will always feel that way..
that is why i always decline their invitation cos i noe i will never know what you guys are talking about..
i miss TEP time..
where we are confined to a certain room n you have to hang out with whoever is in that room..
so at least they hve no choice but to hang out with me..hehe..
pathetic i noe..
but thats the truth n you know it too..
i cant wait to get out of this skul..
be ot i graduate onont..
rite now i dun feel like going to skul animore..
btu i noe deep down..i am aware what that single piece of paper could do to my future..
so of that..i had to persevere thru' my graduation..
even if it means i have to go thru it alone in this skul...

one thing i regret..
failing my POM the first semester..
that lead to all this..
the irony of it..

gtg..
scaning for lec then im off to jurong..
have a nice weekend..

2006-06-14T23:18:00.000-07:00

im back..
from the hosp at least..
had the dreaded op today..
whew..at last..
but nw im still overcome with giddiness..

probably the anasthetic.
hmm.

so early in the mrning already there..
with the whole kerabat..
mcm nak pege mane gitu..
hehe
padahal onli day surgery..

have to arrive 10.30..
but the stuuupid op onli start at 1!!
can you believe it?
bt i realli love Hedhir for accompanying and saying lovey-dovey things at mybedside..
aww..shuckss..
we are soo the romantic..
hehe

overall the op was ok..but the dreaded anasthetic is making me vomit over and over again seh
bleurgh..bleyrgh..
but yet again..
my LOveLy hedhir was by my side all the way..
momsy busy attending to the bab..
yup..Adawiyah we had to bring..
oh how i love that gerl
but i shall try very hard to refrain myself from carrying her these few weeks..
boohoo..

unlike last time..after the op..i had to wait four hours to be discharged..
all b'cos i keep on vomiting..showing all signs of not recovering..
bahs..
but im ok now..
i think..

but this means that i can free myself from doiing any werk now!!
hehe..

took some pics bit decided not post them afterall..
yours truly looks hideous w/o the usual gunk in her face..
plus the hospital gown does not help..At ALL..
so i decide to save you guys from the nitemares then..
heh..

nite..

will post again if i overcome my laziness..
heh

Presenting..the world's Blurrest..and also dumbest..being!!

2006-06-07T12:17:00.000-07:00

Today, i did something stupid..
Amidst my absentmindness..i tawt my klas today will start at 10..
so i diligently wake up at 9..not wantiing to be late for the ICA..
from the mrt station i practically ran to skul..tinking 1 onli haf 5 mins before im officilayy late..
when..lo behold..i got the timing stupidly WRONG!!!!
Idiot!!!!
i enter the lab, apologizing to the dumfounded teacher and suddenly realising that I saw Azrin and Haresh in the CLASS!!
*sejak biler dorang klas aku nie..*
thats when my brain start cuming back to me one by one..
malu you!!

Realising my mistake, i to save my now humiliated-want-hide-in-the-dustbin face, knowing that ther is no turning back, decide to eksyen2 wit the teacher
*btw, its tha same teacher..my teacher for the 11 o'clock klas..thats y maybe she oso stunned..haha*

me: 'cher today gt ICA rite?
'cher: yah..but ur klas at 11 wat?
me: realli meh..i tawt ICA at 10? (knowing that its so not true!!)
cher: no my dear..ur ICA normal klas time..
me..oooooh..ok bye cher....(practically running out of the lab by now..)

So there you go...
my STUPID account..

never tawt i could be this dumb!!
gawd...!!!!

2006-05-15T02:48:00.000-07:00

I think i know why my blog is so dead..
well apart from my not updating..
i also naver post any pictures!!
its so dull...

oh well..i try to remeber to post pics next time then..
hehe

having a three,yes 3 hours break rite nw waiting for the next lec at 7..
gawd,this is a dread man..

i kinda miss TEp..all that slacking..
but on the other hand if i were on TEP rite now..i will miss seeing lil' sweet Adawiyah's face..
and i dont want that..
noo....
hehe..

whos this Adawiyah gerl you say?
well shes this BABY that my mum is babysitting..
and damn cute she is..
yup.
see for yourself..
im going to end this entry with pics of her..
bye!!

aint she a doll?

2006-04-14T12:19:00.000-07:00

Saturday afternoon....
bored..
surfing the net..
entertainning my bro talking nonsense....
i said it before and i say it now..
i.dont.haf.a.life..
heh

public hols..no work,no plan of going out..
thus stay at home
was dead bored la..

speaking of work..
i cant believe im not werking during my two weeks break!!!

what am i possibly going to do?
to think that i told my sic i wanted to work while planning the roster..
and to think that she blatantly ignore my request to werk..
now im stuck at home..
dont get me wrong..
i love being at home..
but i need the $$..
heh

i tink that the people there are secretly plotting not to give me work..
imagine them with their evil eyes and grins talking..plotting the scenes
..
ah heck..
do whatever they want
this job is just temp for me..
till i get my diploma..
then..
its sayonara babeh..

this mon going for the dreaded appointment..
hope its notink..
dont want to worry my mum so much.
haiz..

im reading the Angels and Demon..again..
its damn good man
eading the book the second time gives me a second perspective to the plot..
or maybe thats b'cos i know the ending already..
oops..hehe
my bad

2006-04-13T23:12:00.000-07:00

today would be the last day of 26 weeks of TEP..
I cant believe im going to miss waking up early(not that i do)..
all the slacking,going to endless breaks,watching movies,playing ga,es will be over..
CRMSC..FSRC..EMRS..

worst of all,
i think im going to miss all the Craps...
I think im going to miss the guys..
Saadiah..Shid..
Team 3 of EMRS..Baz,Dennis,Lin Min,Aidah..
i can still remeber the talks(holes?) discussions that we have..ahem..
hehe..
it was fun while it lasted..

Shid n Saadiah...
im going to miss you guys!!!

ok..enuf...
going back to classical mode in a few week's time..
wonder how it will be...

2006-04-08T13:30:00.000-07:00

i am so...Bored rite now..

just surfin' the net..
waiting to go to werk..

it seems that i don't haf alife..
hmm...

saw a secondary school mate dis mornin'...
hw time passes so fast..
one minute you are this geek-looking gerl..the next you are a full time career woman..

At times, i feel that i don't want to grow up..
i just want to stay as a 19-year old thinking of just skuling..
not caring or feeling for the future..

but, other times i can't wait to grow up..
ready to embark on the journey as an adult..

hmm...

on another note,

Happy 18th Berfday Shid..
Altho' most peolple will agree will be that 8 suit you a lot..
haha

logging off now..
am bored to death..

2006-04-06T10:03:00.000-07:00

the long-overdue pic..haha

it took me so long to do this..

i keep postponing it..

Lazy Bummer..That's me..heh..

At 2Hot Halal Cafe..Nice..

Escape Theme Park

My first virgin attempt at photoshop-ing..heh..

2006-04-05T14:14:00.000-07:00

Yippee!!

I got a new skin..i got a new skin...

I think its nice....

do ya tink so?

haha..

i don't care that much..

2006-04-05T11:08:00.000-07:00

i was just looking at my blog..
and god..
it looks so boring..and lame..and plain..

time for a change i guess..

hmmm....

should ask shid's help for designing skin..

i suck at that..
couldn't still figure out how to use that photoshop thang..
am i dumb or just don't care..
hmm....

CurRenT FavouRite Song... Beep..by The PussyCat Dolls

i think im loving this group..
all their songs..i loike!

2006-03-20T14:59:00.000-08:00

so so so sory for the long overdue post..
dono wether its coz of my laziness or the fact that my life is boring..
think its both mayBe..hehe

had a great time celebrating his birthday on fri...
oh. And Sat too..
jgn main2 tau..
2 hari sambut berfdae.
kalah anak raja.
heh.

newiz, we had dinner to tis restaurant at esplanade..
2 Hot Halal cafe...
superb food...
excellent service...
price?
ok2 lah..

skali2 je per....

hehe

then...
the next day we went to....
Escape Theme park..
ok lah..
long time never go..
quite fun we had too!

i LOve him Soo Much....

will show you the pics l8ter...

Bye!!

Lazy to blog areadi....

2006-03-14T23:57:00.000-08:00

Days left to LoVe's DaY-17th MaRch: 4 days..

i still dono what to do!!

2006-03-06T14:18:00.000-08:00

*May SHe Rest In PeacE*

2006-03-03T11:50:00.000-08:00

i am having a free time now..
dont seem to haf any this day..
if im not doing this, im doing that..
it seems that at emrs,u will always have werk..
of coz,it doesnt help that all your group members are very hardwerkking..
so by hook or by crook, i have to be HArdwerking too..
what makes us think that emRs s freakin' easy..
must be Shid lah..
heh..

been sick lately..
all the bugs in the air..
quite a handful had the flu and cough tooo..
me,baz,,tulsi(i tink),Shid..etc
must be Shid lah..passing the germs around..
heh..

sori shid..
can't help myself..
cant stop irritating you..

hmm.
what have i done this past fe weeks?
hmmm.
hmmm.
hmm..
cant tink of anitink leh
im such A FREAKIN boring person man..
heh

on another account,
CONGRATS to all my frens who have graduated and will be graduating soon..
PLeaSe do remember your lonesome fren here who are still stuck here..
aight?

will log in back if i have animore to write..

'dios!!

2006-02-27T17:31:00.000-08:00

i am not on hiatus..
just lazy to blogg..

ciao!

2006-02-17T16:08:00.000-08:00

i passed my Basic theory Test!!!!

albeit its onli BASIC test..

like what some of you would say and already said..

heh..

nevertheless..

im happy that i passed..

period.

2006-02-16T17:35:00.000-08:00

some things you want to know about me?
its hilarious guys...

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Silah!

Four-fifths of the surface of silah is covered in water.
Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and silah has 7.
Silah has little need for water and is capable of going for months without drinking at all.
Silah was originally green, and actually contained cocaine!
More people are killed by silah each year than die in aeroplane accidents.
Silah can grow up to three feet in a 24 hour period.
Forty percent of the world's almonds and twenty percent of the world's peanuts are used in the manufacture of silah.
The blood of mammals is red, the blood of insects is yellow, and the blood of silah is blue.
Humans share about fifty percent of their DNA with silah!
California is the biggest exporter of silah in the world.

n this is about my sweettoo!!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Hedhir!

The Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter is made entirely of hedhir.
The pigment Indian Yellow was manufactured from the urine of cows fed only on hedhir!
If you put a drop of liquor on hedhir, he will go mad and sting himself to death.
Hedhir will often glow under UV light.
Influenza got its name because people believed the disease was caused by the evil "influence" of hedhir.
Olive oil was used for washing hedhir in the ancient Mediterranean world!
You should always store hedhir in an airtight container in the fridge.
Hedhir is the sacred animal of Thailand.
Banging your head against hedhir uses 150 calories an hour!
In Ancient Egypt, people wore glittery eyeshadow made from the crushed shells of hedhir.

i TINk Hedhir's trivia is much much more Funnier..
haha

2006-02-16T16:22:00.000-08:00

hahaz..
finish my report for this stopover..
glad dat's done man..
now,i REALLI have nutink to do..
heh.
had a 'mild' V day last tues..
in the morning, i become a 'model' for this hairstylist..
he perm my hair infront of like what, 50 over 'nyonya's man..
so embarrasing....
but.....on a brigther note, i TINK i look realli NICE with perm hair.
will put my foto here one day aight?
after perm hair which Hedhir painstakingly waited,
went to town..
please lah.. every where got flowers..
be it the ladys are holding flowers or peolple selling flowers..
boring sia..
the flowers like no meaning like dat..
thank god hedhir never bought flowers man..
embarrasing man to hold flowers n see that practically every1 is holding the same thing!
we went back at around 8 plus (no life huh?)
got bored with the lovey-dovey crowd..
dut get me wrong man..
its not as if hedhir and me had lost 'its' touch areadi ..
its not as if we are not romantic..
but we felt..why show your love just one day of the year?
pathetc eh?
i mean we feel that we show each other our love every day..why must V day be an exception?
that day onli isit cn buy flowers?
aneweis, enuf abt this man..for all of you dun agree to waht i just said..do keep in mind that this is only MY opinion..by yours truly..

anewei.....

had an intersting TODAY..
heh
ate lunch at Pizzah Hut AMK with these two 'losers'..haha
just kidding shid..i noe u are my fren..rite? oh n azrin too!!
had a helluva time man..
we went to this arked where we spent or maybe shid pay but we spent together..heh
once agin thks shid!!
we spent like $20 bucks man!!
just playing DAytona..
oh..
n street fighter..
i apparently have a gift of playing street fighter..or was it kung fu fighter?
shid..ehem..keep losing..
heh
BUT..
the climax..cheh..came when we tawt we want to act like minahs(shid n me that is..azrin he mat lah..) and try PARA-PARA Dance!!!!
i noe!!
how pathetic can you get man??!!
some of you know howthe game werks rite?
u got to step in the direction given in the screen..
shid apparently misses the cuea and mis-step the first two step..
just when i want to show my TALENT..
'GAME OVER' was flashing on the screen!!!
what!!!
teh game is over!!!
Wat the hell man!!
game baru start dah habis..
hahaha
loser man u shid..!!
hahahahahahah
80ct mind you..
i feel like a pathetic sod after that..
heh..
all because of this PARA-PARA dance..
haiz
just prove that we are not a minah..(or maybe shid is?)
i noe azrin is a certified mat..(he said so himself!!)

haha

k lah..

off to become a $$'millionaire'$$...

shut up shid..
i noe wat you are going to say..
just shut up!

2006-02-13T17:25:00.000-08:00

all right.. i just finito my ica role play..hah..that was funny..i tink even the teacher thought so..
seeming that i have nothing to do (hah! dream on silah!), i thought of showing you guys the fotos that i took during Chinese New Year hols...(what Silah??!!! CNY over areadi long time ago lah..)

i noe..i noe..but nutink betterto do lah..just put lah...
if you dont want to see,refrain yourself from continuing.. i let the pictures do the talking aite?

fav nephew.....

cute right he? i loike..

apparently i didnt noe my bro's face was cut..hah..

the day at the science centre

me n my sayang

this is our'future' home..heh

2006-02-13T12:54:00.000-08:00

I Love Taufik!!!!!!!!

But I love *HIM* even MOrE.....heh

2006-02-10T23:27:00.000-08:00

ShiT!!! Mother Fish.. (pardon my language!)
is it happening again?
i dread it man..

it was painful man the first time..
i dont want for it happen again sia..selisih..
this morning..i feel like its deja vu all over again man..
initially dont want to worry my mum..but these things where can keep quiet one?
as xpected shes worried..bt she olso say to wait n see how it goes..
im scared man..
no wonder i feel the pain..
mummy..im scared..

all my kind frens out there..pls pray for my safety..pray that nutink is going to happen..again..
or maybe im just overacting..heh
dear god,hope its nutink..
amin..

2006-02-09T14:37:00.000-08:00

it is 2 pm i have been doing nutik in skul..surfing crap in the net..talking crap wif shid n azrin..entertainnig men these guys..haha
its a waste man going to skul everyday from 9-6..u practicaally doing nutink in skul..albeit theres project..but you dont want to be doing that rite now rite..ezpecially since u noe that u have all the time in the world..haiz..i have a boring life man..damn..

been reading and still reading the DaVinci Code..man..Dan brown is good..he keep me on my seats..if u noe wat i mean.. :) the realism and the characters are too much man..cant wait o finsh this book and know the ending..
usually when i want to start to read a book..i will read the ending foist..haha..weird..i noe..especially if the book a romantic one..about a guy and a gerl..i willl read the ending to see whether they will live happily after..hahaha...LAme asilah..haha

been quarelling with hedhir alot these days..mayabe my PMS causing this?haha..
i will pick up fights for no reasons..n boy when we fight..the one who harsh werds will always be Yours Truly..i noe,i noe..lama2 hedhir lari baru tau..been hearing that a lot man..esp my mum..hahas..she noes that i have a bad mouth n that Hedhir always get the wrath..but i doneo why..and how to control myself..sumtimes,i will purposely shoot out names to iririttate him n i noe taht sometimes he is hurt by it..but i refuses to tink about that..
but the aftermath..i wll fret my self like crazee..What HAve I Done? Why did i say that?Why did i hurt him? altho' he nevers howthat he was hurt n wil alwayspujuk me when we fight..even tho' im at fault!!..
im a bad gerl...
i dont deserve Him..
I noe..
After that, i will cry myself,scarin meself that he wiil leave after this..
im so emotionallly unbalanced man..
i dont deserve him..
sum frens say im lucky to have him..
but does he tink the same about me?
yeah..i take care of him well..more than his mum actually..but a guy will get bored rite someday with a gerl who cant control her emotions..

Sometimes i tink the reason that i did all this to him is so that he will get tired with me n break with me sooner..before we go even longer and then suddenly he lose interest in me?
AM I MAKING SENSE HERE PEOPLE?
its just that i felt that its better you hate me now then u hayte me later..
sooner or later u r bound to hate me..
Sometimes thats what i say to him..
n his face show a hurtful face that it makes me tear tinking about it now..
I am That Bad..
do i deserve him..

i noe some of you tink that im aweird gerl tinking all the bad stuff..n peolpe say that if u tink all the bad stuff..it can happen rite..
BUt the bottom of my heart..I Dont Want It to Happen..
i noe..I Love Him Too Much..
i just don tink theres any guy who could love me so much..like him..i feel and scared that its only a short sweet drem that will one day wake me up..
i dono..haiz..

i tink i shouldnt feel so insecure..

if anybody should feel insecure..it should be him..he practically throw his frens away when he met me..not that i ask him to..while i still on to my frens..going out with them..while his life revolve around me alll day all nite..i dun understand why he is not bored with me..sometimes i am..n he noes..so if one person should be insecured..its should be him..

n i tink sometimes if i am not happy why stick for so long..? you would ask thatt rite?
answer:
I.
STILL.
LOVE.
HIM.
n i DO want to be with him forever..

maybe i shuld settle my emotional balance first..
heh
silah, silah..

2006-02-08T22:44:00.000-08:00

my new skin guys..
my long dued post..
nothing much has happen actually has happen these days..
last week was my block leave..
just lazing around at home..
too tired/lazy to go out..

what am i doing today?
hmm....
supposed to be doing scripts for ICA but i cant get around myself to start on it..
i noe i noe..you lazy bum you...haha
will update later if i have anintink to write..
boring seh..

current book reading: Dan Brown's The DaVinci Code

2006-01-20T19:09:00.000-08:00

what am i doing on a SAT man..!!

i dono what to blog sia nowadays..

nutink exciting that happen these days

just that our skul now having its annual open house and nutink interesting is happening..

no eye candy watsoever..

hmphh..

alah..blog later lah..maybe mon when i cum skul..

boring ah..

this gerl...

2006-01-16T17:18:00.000-08:00

the other day i was talking to this fren of mine..about how sceptical(is that the correct spelling?) about love in overall..
She dono why that when u have a bf or gf, u haf to report whatever you are doing to him/her?
coz we were talking about this other fren of mine who is sad coz her bf never msg her gd morning when he woke up and never tell her that he was going out until my fren itself msg him.(am i making sense?)
then i was sympathising with my fren cos i personally feel that even though it is stupid to report every thing to ur bf or gf..u should have some decency to at least tell where you are going lah..what for u have bf or gf??
kinda stupid i tink..
why do u want to make ur gf or bf worry about you?
if u don want to or dont bother..den..dont bother having a bf or gf..
is that rite?
btw..im entitled to my own thoughts..u dont agree its ok..dats my thoughts..
anewei, my fren( the one i was talking to) feel that why do you have to telleverything that you ae doing? to even going out?
hmm..
contradicting? i noe..
then i say to her that when you are in love..anything can happen..Love is blind,people say..it can make u do things that u never would have done.
when you are in love, anything that u do u want him to be a part of it..
the conclusion: My fren Have never been In love (we agree on this btw)
heh

im bored

2006-01-13T16:51:00.000-08:00

i dono wat im doing this weekend..
im broke, thats a start..
im not working..
i probably 'hang out' at my grandma's place like the old times..hehe..
LAME..
not a way a 20-year old gal should spend her sat in..
*sob*sob*

i am so bored..n i hate my LIfe..
financially at least..
heh..

i want to go back n mit my dear..
Love him..
Love You

LAKA KEILANA or DIANNA OTELO? or maybe Tania Malia?

2006-01-13T16:07:00.000-08:00

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Laka Keilana

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Dianna Otelo

Your Alias Should Be:

Tania Malia

Which of these suits me to the T?

i go for the latter..

Start calling me Tania people..

Asilah @ Tania..

LOL

eeww....

2006-01-13T13:16:00.000-08:00

i had the most disgusting experience today when gont to skul on th train..
i was standing near the door at the glass pane minding my own business and checking out guys*ehem* when this chinese guys in his early 20s i guess standing opposite me..
i mean hes ok lah..normal..never pay attention to him..
then he start singing to himself..n talking to himself while looking out..while talking,suddenly he made this hand gesture when u are happy that u have achieved somthing..u got wat i mean? never mind..anewei, i was like not looking but at the same time trying to kpo2..i mean im not the only one lor..the mrt is packed!! practically everyone stariing at him but pretending not to ..hah.. then.....the most disgusting thing happened..he was picking at his pimple while its still boiling red..can u imagine?? when its still like..very disgusting rite..then with the dirty finger..he go and smell it and put it at his lips!!
i noe...Eeeeeewwwwww....
then he was picking his nose and flicking it around..i tell u, by that time i was practically want to vomit already lor..
dirty people..
can still put in his mouth some more his finger...
DOuble Eeww..

anewei, enough about that..its image is playing in my mind and i want it to stop..

like my new skin? Who's dat gerl ah? ehem.. eheheheh

i finally got the hang of this blog thingy..

want to go lunch at South but nobody want to accompany me..(hint,hint shid..) haha

i want to eat..
im famished..is that the correct word?
who cares....

Rain,Rain gO away...

2006-01-11T14:43:00.000-08:00

i still remember this rhyme back in k'garten dayz...

rain,rain go away..
come again another day...

hehe..

i am so...dreading the rain..when is it going to stop???? bored lah..plus im freezing to death here in th room..
Why is it that not one single teacher is checking on us..from morning till now..we are 'free'.. probably they also lazy want to go out from their room..LOL

haiz..when is it going to be the end of the month..i need some excitement..but iM BROKE!!

speaking of wich, i dun tink i will be working animore at Guardian..my 'sweet' supervisor trying to create trouble for me..
Can U fire someone w/o any reason?
on that note,
Can u even fire someone w/o telling them they are being fired..
please lah..
be a man..or in this case lady..
u want to fire me, say it in my face lah..tho' i dono what i did wrong also..
is it a crime?
i was sick..i took mc in the morning..n i msg u that i gt the mc and i couldnt werk that evening..is it counted as last minute? **** lah..hehe

i am just wasting my life here at skul..with nutink to do..

i aM imaGininG my bed rite now...

2006-01-09T12:33:00.000-08:00

we fought yesterday..
dono about what..
about who..
i just noe that i do not like to fight with him..
every litlle thing will just come out of each other's mouth..
i hate it..
but why cant the world be fair..
why cant we be happy..
i don envy my family of friends who have or achieved happiness with their someone..
why cant i?
why cant him?
why cant we..
i just noe that if we are really together in da future..
we are never gonna be safe..
bad people will still trouble me..you..us..

2006-01-09T08:53:00.000-08:00

monday morning......
so blue....
i dono wat am i doing early in the morning..
dono why im early today..
initially, feel like 'malas' want to go to skul..feel like the spirit of Raya is in my body..seeing that my mum n dad preparing to cook a feast..got ketupat some more..haiz..
What.
Am.
I.
doing.
Here.

2006-01-06T16:56:00.000-08:00

i have finish my presentation..!!
i don noe what the hell i was blabbering just now..hahaha
'remuneration' also cannot pronounce properly...heeh..blabbering like an IDIOT...
then ths Azrin go and keep speaking malay to me..'kau click sini'..kau click sana'..haha
what lah azrin..
i look like an idiot lor..hahah
k lah..
i.want.to.go.home.!!

n
meet
my
MAN....

2006-01-06T15:15:00.000-08:00

kesssiann my man...while im here at skul enjoying the comfort of the aircon and the company of my frens..my ma is out there struggling on his own going to the doctor..my heart bleeds for you..how i wish i could accompany you but sadly i got ot be here with all tis..furthernmore..have to do presentation for the stupid marketing tip..iwant to be with him!!!
hes running around from his company doctor then to the polyclinic cos they want my man to check his blood..ntah2 vampire tak..hehe..thats y my man have to go polyclinic..then have to go back the clinic yoeu noe.!!pity my man..
haizz...
then his mum kol n ask him where he is n why im not with him..please lah..im skuling for goodness sake..
she will surely find fault with me again..for sure one..
how i wish this world comprises only the people i *Love*..
Die! you bad people...
muahaha...

hey 2006!!

2006-01-05T15:38:00.000-08:00

wha' hey? what's dat?
huhh? 2005? pass already..wait..(lame.. i noe..hehaahah)

i.so.cant.believe that it is 2+0+0+6..fast eh..haiz..wat did i achieve last year??
1. i am more fashionable(....)
2. learn to earn ma my own $$..no need to depend on mother..(kesian mother)
3.i turn 19
4.looking forward to 20
5.learn how to tolerate my man's attitude(i tink it goes the same with him..hehe..)
6.....
7..pathetic ah..
8.i didnt do anitink goood last year!!

i feel like a loser ah..hmmm..trying to b a more organised person this '06..what i hope to achieve '06
1.get my license by E.O.Y
2.hope that my man get his bike by end of year..whee..
3.finish skul by Oct so can find job..to make money
4.want o finally buy a GENUINE LV bag wit my money above..
5.make this year fun..

hehe

2005-12-30T14:10:00.000-08:00

Is this moi??? haha....

OMG..is my man a hunk..Heheh..

hey peeps..

2005-12-29T18:36:00.000-08:00

hey ..long time i nebe update ah..sori ah..my blog dat time dono got sometink wrong..then i lazy to change first lah..haiz..now bored ah..nutink to do..urm..actually got pprojek..but Azrin doing his part now..actually he did the most part of our assignment..hehe..thanks azrin..sori too Azrin..hehe..
hmm.wat did i do last weekend? i dun care..i am just waitig for this weekend to cum..hehe..im having a chalet!! HAIZ..I HOPE IT TURNS OUT OK..to all my frens i am sending an online invite rite now,rite here..those who wana cum,holler me aight? am expecting youuuu..hehe
haiz..until now first lah..got to help azrin do the projeck.. *kesian Azrin* hehe

Ezad (Exists) & Eva (Iva Virginia) Dua Insan

2005-12-22T00:19:00.000-08:00

( Eva: )
Bila kau senyum, ku gembira
Bila kau sedih, ku menangis
Bagai taman rindukan kembang
Ku rindu wajahmu oh sayang
( Ezad: )Di mana saja kau berada
Ku kan tetap bersamamu
Walaupun jasadku jauh
Namun hati tetap padamu
Bila saja halangan menimpa
Kerna cinta ada ku tetap setia
Hanya dikau dan asmara membuat hidupku bagai dalam syurga
( Eva: )
Biar masa berganti masa
Biar pun musim berganti musim
Telah kukatakan padamu oh sayang
( Eva & Ezad: )
Hanya kuasa Tuhan dapat memisahkan
( Eva: )
Jika kau tanya pada rembulan
Mengapa cahaya berseri-seri
Nanti jawabnya kepada mu
Kerna dikau cinta padaku
( Ezad: )
Ku persembahkan kepada mu
Sekuntum bunga mawar merah
Kau terima sambil tersenyum
Kembang yang harum kau cium
( Eva & Ezad: )
Bila saja halangan menimpa
Kerna cinta ada ku tetap setia oh...
Hanya dikau dan asmara
Membuat hidupku bagai dalam syurga
( Ezad: )
Dua insan sedang bercinta
Dua insan berjanji setia
Eva & ezad:
Telah kukatakan padamu oh sayang
Hanya kuasa Tuhan dapat memisahkan
( Eva & Ezad: )
Bila kau senyum, ku gembira
Bila kau sedih, ku menangis
Bagai taman rindukan kembang
Ku rindu wajahmu oh sayang
Di mana saja kau berada
Ku kan tetap bersamamu
Walaupun jasadku jauh
Namun hatiku tetap padamu
*Any woman can fool a man if she wants to and if he's in love with her
-Agatha Christie*

Baby..im amazed by youuu....

2005-12-21T23:49:00.000-08:00

haiz..i feel that i dono my man these past days..not seeing each other for two days in a row makes me feel that i am losing him..
but i noe that everybody has their own duties to do..skul,me..werk,him..haiz
wonder how people go for a long distance relationship or not meetin their guy/gerl for 1 or two weeks..
i got this fren..matair dah 5 tahun tapi skg kene long distance realitonship..how does that werk??what do u need for it to maintain..??
i noe a lot of ma frens eh..matair tapi see onli 2 or 3 weeks once..macam maner tu? aku sendiri 2,3 hari tak jumpa jadi giler seh..hehe
i noe that i am lucky to get a guy as good as him..all my frens said so..but i still feel scared..scared of losing the perfect guy..im not perfect..i have mu bad points..if he want, he could choose the prettier ones or one whos perfect physically..but y me? y me who is not perfect phjysically?
in the past, i used to pick fights with him just because i feel insecured..iin my mind, i rather make him angry,fght with me and break with me..cos for me this is surreal..can anibodi love me that much?
i noe and trust that he luve me..heck..ive done su=ome mean things to hurt his feelings..but he still want me..whenever we fight,its always him..ALWAYS..to apologise..never me..am i bad? do i deserve him?
but i do all this is not because i dont love him..
its because i love him too much..
when we still dating two years ago, i will do ways to make him n to make him to discontinue the realtionship..i feel that we have just dated rite? if we break..we wont be so hard up..but he still pursue me..never even say the word 'break'..is this right?am i bad? am is elfish not waniting to get hurt thus hurting others?
i do love him very much..now even more..i noe he does too..but i ant help feeling that there is a better girl forhim out there..one that his mother will like..haiz...
i luv you too much, my DARLING..
i cant feel that i can live w/o you..
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

@A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose-Rob Cella@

UpDaTed Lor!!

2005-12-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

hey peeps...
i am so bored here at FSRC man.. it is SO not da same as CrmSC man..i dono why ia am stuck here..at least Saadiah..u got your own comp..me,i have to share the pathetic comp with the others...ARGGHH!! i could go mad!!
anewei, keep going back to the x'mas party that will forever be in my heart and head..such fun we had seh..i know that we can never relive it again but i just hope that we got a chance to do ity in the future..haizz...life is ever changing..u lost frens n u make new ones..u fall and u 'bangun' again..but, its you who lives your own life..Cheh...
i miss the games that we played the most..'Bing Bang Boom' lah, pictionary lah.. and Charade!! haha...funny sia tinking of the 'fools' my frens became..hhaha..
back to the party..overall, it was a fun one..not as we planned but you can nebe predict what will happen rite..tawt thw guys never cooperate but guys will ALWAYS be guys..rite??
the cliMax was when joanne showed us a 'surprise' video for us..wah..so touching Sia..i tink i nearly shed a few tears..heheh..the food was nice..i mean..Pizza..mane yg tak sedap..kan kan kan? i tink we nebe took enuf fotos that day..tink the guys are tired of taking fotos for 9 weeks..Muahaha..

finally

2005-12-18T13:24:00.000-08:00

the pics are here.. u will see alot of weird photos..haha.
haiz..i miss u people man!!!!!
the cake that i 'painstakingly' made..hehe..actualli a ready made cake mix..haha
the ever popular wedges..from..SOUTH CANTEEN..
wine?? haha..Sparkling"wine" juice..haha..aksyen mabuk jer...
CRMSC....lives forever...
FOod...gALORE..fOOd.....HAHA..BANYAK EH..TAPI HABIS JUGAK..ISH2
Hai..pagi2 dah amik gambar..haha..hud2
HAHA..'ANGEL'..LOL
MY GIFT(s)..!!!rantai tu shid kasi..nice rite?..Thanks Shid!!the bear from Chee Yong..onli ms ho;s gift not in da pic..sori..
Da 5 gerls n da guy..CHEH

the days are OVER

2005-12-16T18:17:00.000-08:00

sori ah long time nebe update people.. no time sia the past few weeks.. whtat with the projects..maklmumlah, dah nak kat habis stopover first kan
but the highlight of the group was when we had our pre christmas party cum last day of the stopover.. gerek gua ckp ngn lu..
the foto nanti pelan 2 aku update k?

wat i did this wkend??

2005-12-04T20:44:00.000-08:00

hmm..wat i did this weekend ah? ohh..i went shopping..!!!! on sat me, my man jalan satu bandar seh..kecian my man..balik keje trus layang kan gerl dia yg giler jalan satu town..hehe..
first stop we went to Plaza Singapure..jalan2..pnuyerlah ramai orang pat sana..nk carik skirt 4 ma D&D..actualli my man's D&D..the top i areadi bought at BUgis the other time..cume skirt je punye susah nk carik..cerewet seh..hehe..makan hati my man..hehe..terjadi lah kisah kene ge bandar carik skirt..so anewei kite jalan2 pat Ps, skali EBASE ada 40% off seh for their bottoms..apa lagi masuk lah..then i found the perFECT skirt..price slashed down seh from $44 tau..
dah carik skirt apa lagi jalan ge town from PS..haiz..its been a long time i jalan2 ngn my man pat town..asik keje ngn skola jeee..itupun i ask for off dat sat kalau tak mesti kene keje punyer..
my man nk carik wallet sama2..ntah ape yg dia nak pun tak tau lah..brand ape..
ma pic i will dwnload later for ur viewiwng k?

life is constantly on the move.....Catch Up!!!!

2005-11-25T13:25:00.000-08:00

arghh..i feel mcm ketinggalan zaman seh..orang dah dua tahun blogging,i just started..mc baby baru merangkak seh....
haiz..ntahlah..i feel dat in this world and in S'pore, u gotta move fast, if not people will leave you behind..u cannot say that u want to move at your own pace or that u don wan to do wat others are doing..u will get left behind, i tell you.. For e.g me..i dun even care abt blogging until now that i'm doing tep..staying in the same room from 9-6 everyday with people 'hantu blogging'..feel mcm dah tua beb!!
Now luckily with help of my expert frenz..i now noe to create new post! hehe..
now boring ah..takde benda nk buat..nk ge break, tadik dah mkn ngn my man..yah..he sanggup dtg my skul mkn..kate die murah dan dah lama tk mkn..hehe..luv u dear!! skg tgh tunggu kul 2.30 je..nk tgk dis musical thingy at SBM day..Dorence is playing the doctor..ntah doctor ape pun tak tau lah..tgk je lah..hopefully i can show some pics later..
haiz..skejap dah friday..sat sun werk..mon MC..yeah..my uncle is goingto be nikah-ed..Cant wait..
k lah..till here first lah..want to walk arnd the skul ah..boring!!!
Chao!

'kena" caught!!!

2005-11-24T12:31:00.000-08:00

first time in history at NYP,we kena caught today..hehe
just for eating....ICE CREAM..wanna noe the story?

now that we doing at attachment at skul, in this room that i am at..not allowed to eat tau..sien kan?
skali kan nari Ameer nye b'day..jadi nk kasi surprise at him lah..go n bougt him a slice of cake (maklumlah, we still student..pokai lah sikit..)
so we oso bought him ice cream..yang Kings' punye..so,after singing him the berfday song..kite proceed pulak nak makan ice cream..baru nk amik first bite,ckgu masuk daa...
ape lage..dumbfounded seh members2 jap..hehe
the tchr damn scary u noe..ask for our name..then our *dear* Sheena go n give her admin kad..dah pakcik tu mintak admin kad pulak..*thanks* sheena..hehe
after dat..huda dah takut...heh..kelakar seh tgk muka satu2..gelabah jap..Miss ho, our tchr call us to see us at her room..thefunny ting is onli gerls were caught tau..coz we the onli one yg caught eating the ice cream or surrounding the table..lelaki2 sume tgh buat bende lain..jadilah we become the bad gerls of the day..hehe..
Luckily, the dear Ms Ho memang baik hati orangnya..she never gave us warnig letter but onli give us warning....huh??? nebe mind.. haiz..im gonna miss this klas n Ms Ho..Onli 3 weeks left till the next stopover..wonder what i will get next seh?
aneweiz..my stomach growling ah now..hehe..havent eat lunch u noe..tunggu the rest come back then my group can eat..hmmm..wonder what my man is doing? is he tinking about me?? cheh..btw..y'day was our 2 years and 4 months anni together..hehe..hope can stay strong..
miss you baby...
talk later..eat first..
chao..

(p/s..ameer,happy berfdae!)

im Bored...

2005-11-22T23:31:00.000-08:00

hei..im bored..like my skin onot? don like or like tell ah..hehe..
i dono wat to do..whether life is boring or cool..skul 9-6 everyday but nutink to do..not even to study..go skul waste time..never even learn something..cant wait to go back to studying in 4 months' time..meanwhile just slacking,surfing the net trying to decipher this blog thing..
cant believe that im sooo outdated..hehe..

what????

2005-11-20T20:13:00.000-08:00

ma foist time seh blogging..hehe..sori ah if boring..will update later...